As the day draws closer, I cannot help but miss my sister Grace. She passed away suddenly a little over two years ago. She was the only one in my family I felt that I can truly relate to. The only other one who was a believer and interceding for our family with me.
Weddings, relationships, heartbreaks are what you talk over with your siblings, especially if you like them and we liked each other a lot. Despite how often our personality clashed, (me the extrovert and first born, or technically only child while she was an introvert) we bonded in how weird we both were. So as the wedding day draws near, it’s really difficult that she’s not here to relish in the fact that this day has finally come! To rejoice together that those gut wrenching nights of unanswered questions, tears and heartbreak do lead to some place better when we entrust our love life to the Lord.
The Lord’s been gracious and given me dreams of Grace to comfort my heart since she passed away, I’ve even heard her speak to me in times of worship. Once she came to me in a dream and gave me a hug after I prayed the night before for the Lord to give me grace to love Him. In the dream, she handed me something that was already hers. I woke up feeling so much love and joy, touched that the Lord gave me a dream, sending my sister to give me grace to love Him.
Well, Grace, I know you’re in the throne room, worshipping and praying with Jesus in all His glory, but I just wanted you thank you for praying for me up there. I need it. No, I really need it. Really. And you probably see everything, or maybe you’re just staring at Jesus cause He’s so gloriously good looking. But just wanted to let you know that Dustin’s a great guy. You’ll meet him one day and we’ll hang. He was worth the wait. He truly loves the Lord, leads me to His heart, loves God more than his ministry, he’s considerate, gentle, kind, sensitive, good looking, sincere, generous, has a great voice when he sings, creative like me, got a strange sense of humor but makes me laugh, taller than me, much much taller than me and part Native American (which I thought was so cool!). I know you had something to do with it along with the Lord in making this happen in spite of myself : ) and you know what I mean hahahaha….better than anybody else. So pray and release some extra angels to the wedding, you can appear too if you’d like. Though I think that may freak people out a little. But, maybe they need to be shocked into the reality of Christ? I dunno. You talk it over with the Big Man and work something out. I know you already know, but I didn’t have a maid of honor in honor of you. I said honor twice, if you were here, you would correct me : ) haha Ms. Grammer. Miss you and love you Grace! See you most likely when you appear in the clouds with Jesus at His second coming.
P.S. I miss watching season one of Alias with you til 5am in the morning when I’m sick with bronchitis