Getting Perspective of the Storm: Making Sense of the Past 7 Years

As the day for our departure for Taiwan draws near, my heart’s becoming increasingly emotional. Yet as I prayed and sought the Lord, I was unable to understand the source of such tumult in my heart. I felt like Dorothy in Wizard of Oz, confounded as a tornado sweeps up everything around me, swallowed up in the mess. 

As I look back to the past seven years I’ve been at IHOP-KC, I can’t help but notice how difficult and painful my time here as been. Within the past few years, I’ve been stripped of many things, my heart broken by the loss of my sister, vision, dream, friends, church family, who I thought I was, my self-esteem, my pride and the list goes on. I didn’t feel offense in my heart, but I longed to know what it was all for? I needed closure of some sort for this chapter of my life.  

Slowly the Lord unfolded His perspective of this tornado twisting in my heart through a verse, 

“So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.” 2 Corinthians 4:16-18

Though through these seven years, my outer self was wasting away, He has been faithfully renewing me day by day. Preparing for me an eternal glory that far surpasses all the materially attractive things of this world that truly ARE fading away. 

How important it is to remember that we are to set our eyes on the things that are unseen rather than measure the success of our lives, our faith and relationship with God by the things that are seen, the world’s measuring stick.

Much of the fruits that the seeds God has sown in me, cultivated in me these past years will not be seen nor tasted and enjoyed until later, perhaps some not until I see His face. But the Lord is calling me to set my eyes on things above, the things unseen. Press my ear against His heart and listen to His heart beat for me, “I am proud of you and doing a good work in you.” 

The condition of the church throughout the world today is shocking and disconcerting. Believers are loosing heart, preachers are in sin, churches are in disunity, friendly fires are being set off left and right. The world does not need another outwardly fruitful believer, it needs those who know Jesus and believe His Word. It may sound easy, but are we willing to go through God’s fire to be refined and purified by His loving presence? 

Thank You for this reminder Lord. Set my eyes on You.