Reach For Me/Will Reagan

Loving this song. Had to share.

Reach for Me
Break me open, God in motion, light my world with fire & rain

Can you feel my heart as I reach for You
Can you feel my heart as I reach for You

Break me open, God in motion, light my world with fire & rain

I can feel Your heart as you reach for me
I can feel Your heart as You reach for me

I can feel You
I can feel You now
I can feel You
I can feel You now

Redeemed Heart: God’s Purposes and Plans for Our Emotions

Oftentimes the enemy takes advantage of our emotions. When we hurt, are weak, offended or angry, anything other than the more pleasant and wrongly assumed socially acceptable emotion of happiness, the enemy will accuse us of sin. 

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Truthfully, most of these times we are merely struggling and being tempted but have yet to give into sin. But in those moments of weakness and temptation the enemy whispers to us that we are in fact already in sin and displeasing God. When we give into this accusation, we then separate ourselves from God, the One we need to deliver us.

The truth is, most of have a difficult time sorting through our emotions. Many of us haven’t been discipled or parented in our emotions. Typically, how we respond to our emotions is by trying to push it down or ignore it, hoping that it would depart from us when in fact emotions are a gift from God. 
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No Better Time (Help Me Find My Own Flame)/Will Reagan

love this song. trying to post more songs that help me connect with the Lord.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zGt6agb6s3w

I don’t want to ride on somebody else’s passion
I don’t want to find that I’m just dry bones
I want to burn with unquenchable fire
Deep down inside see it coming alive
Help me find my own flame
Help me find my own fire
I want the real thing
I want Your burning desire
Do what only You can do
In my heart tonight,
There’s no better time
There’s no better time
There’s no better time
There’s no better time

Things David Told Me

More real and tangible than the individuals that forgot him, tried to kill him and overthrow his rule was the Lord to David. He boldly proclaimed with each decision he made, “God is real”.

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David’s life, his trials, his cries I hear through the psalms he wrote and how God avenged, honored and disciplined him, reminded me that God is the most real, His promises more true than all the momentary things that attempt to trouble and weigh us down. His life lifts my head up to behold the Lord and to feel the light of His countenance.

He had true faith: “Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see” -Hebrew 11:1

He was SO certain of God’s promises over his life, his kingship over Israel, that he didn’t take matters into his own hands but rather trusted in God to fulfill what He spoke in His time.

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The Truth About David

The truth about David is that he was most likely rejected and looked down upon by his family. Before his anointing, before the mighty men, before the battles and the building of Jerusalem, David was rejected.

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“Then he consecrated Jesse and his sons, and invited them to the sacrifice. So it was, when they came, that he looked at Eliab and said, “Surely the Lord’s anointed is before Him!” But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not look at his appearance or at his physical stature, because I have refused him. For the Lord does not see as man sees; for man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.” So Jesse called Abinadab, and made him pass before Samuel. And he said, “Neither has the Lord chosen this one.” Then Jesse made Shammah pass by. And he said, “Neither has the Lord chosen this one.” Thus Jesse made seven of his sons pass before Samuel. And Samuel said to Jesse, “The Lord has not chosen these.” And Samuel said to Jesse, “Are all the young men here?” Then he said, “There remains yet the youngest, and there he is, keeping the sheep.” And Samuel said to Jesse, “Send and bring him. For we will not sit down till he comes here.” So he sent and brought him in. Now he was ruddy, with bright eyes, and good-looking. And the Lord said, “Arise, anoint him; for this is the one!” Then Samuel took the horn of oil and anointed him in the midst of his brothers; and the Spirit of the Lord came upon David from that day forward.” -1 Samuel 16:5-13

“Now Eliab his eldest brother heard when he spoke to the men. And Eliab’s anger was kindled against David, and he said, “Why have you come down? And with whom have you left those few sheep in the wilderness? I know your presumption and the evil of your heart, for you have come down to see the battle.” And David said, “What have I done now? Was it not but a word?” -1 Samuel 17:28-29

When someone of Samuel’s status comes into your home, most likely knowing that he may potentially anoint one of your sons as the next king of Israel, how can you forget just one of your children and remember all the rest?
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What You Have to Say

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It’s easy
to believe what people say
be labeled
String up each syllable
Put it around my neck, my wrist
allow them to adorn me through the years
give into the teeth of its darkly colored judgements
Easy to swallow each word,
permit it life

But what do You have to say about it?

“you don’t have to believe in lies,
let go of the darkness
come abide in my light”

I’ll allow Your truth to hold my hands instead
hold me together instead
Your opinions
Your thoughts
Your songs…..
towards me that do not fade even when laid out in the sunlight
they’re tangible, concrete
I can stand upon it and feel it beneath me when the waves try to swallow me whole
holding
leading me back
home

The Invitation

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This is me
Broken bits and all
Emotional highs and lows and all
Smiles, tears, silence, awkward glances and not sure of what to say but wish I did, and all

You’ve been asking me
ever since we met
to let You in on it
In on the smiles, frowns, awkward silences and especially the pain I try to conceal with my smiles and laughter
You asked me to no longer carry it on my own and let You in on it all……………..
and when You say all, You meant it
It wasn’t just a nice thing to say
for in You there are no shadows, no darkness, no wavering
only truth

So, help me let You in
for I need Your help to do even that
In on the pain I want to hide
In on the tears I no longer want to cry
In on the bad attitudes, anger and confusion I hold no pride in

I’ll let You in…
let You tell me I’m beautiful right now
let You in on the real me
and let You love…
me

Reminders of Him/每天的提醒

We need daily reminders of what God is like….these testimonies touched my heart today. Hope they encourage you and draw you closer to our kind Abba as well
每天都需要被提醒 神的面目和個性。今天這兩個見證觸摸了我的心,希望也可以帶領你更接近阿爸天父。


The Real Story: God the True Author of Our Lives

I’m so familiar with the story of my life. I can relay it to anyone. Yet God, my Father, has been pointing me to the true story of my life. The story which began not with my parents but with Him. 

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Too often, I’m drawn towards the tragedies of my life: my parent’s divorce, moving to another country at a young age and leaving all my relatives, feeling alone, rejected, physical abuse, verbal abuse, my sister passing away etc. But God’s been sitting me down, telling me the real story of my life.

My life began not with my parents conceiving me but rather from God’s desire for me. His creation of my form, my unique personalities and quirks. I began as a speck of light, conceived in love, held in His gentle hands which were the ones that received me first even here on earth. His declaration over me when I was born was, “this is my daughter, whom I love.” 

It’s so easy to focus on the darkness rather than in the light that shines all around. His great light that envelopes me and keeps me. But each day He is inviting me to lift my eyes up and feel the light of His countenance shining upon me, sustaining me with His unfailing love. 

God is the One who reigns over my life, the author and perfecter of my story. Some of the other altars of remembrance, moments in my life where God reminded me yet again that He is intimately involved in my life include the time when He called me to IHOPKC. Up to that time, I’ve just been doing whatever I wanted with my life but then seeing others like Jaeson Ma who shared at our church about how The Lord called him and set him apart, the signs and wonders he witnessed in his life awakened a cry in my heart for God’s plans for my life. So I prayed for His direction, I cried out for His will, for His hand to visibly direct my life. So He did by speaking to me and answering the hidden question of my heart by sending a little girl to draw a picture reminding and confirming a prophetic word I received two years prior. 

When I was hurt by authority figures in my life, He gave a dream to a friend of mine and put it on her heart to send me the dream the night I had a huge argument with my leader. That dream not only comforted me but also revealed to me God’s heart about the situation. 

God sent spiritual fathers and mothers to parent me in areas I wasn’t loved and parented. He sent individuals to encourage me when I was down, to remind me I’m not alone when I struggled with loneliness, to point me to the truth of God’s love for me when I felt rejected. He sent those who were anointed in inner healing, counseling, pastoring, mothering and fathering to minister to my heart in different seasons of my life. 

There are countless other moments where The Lord reminded me yet again how He is watching over me. But I want to boldly declare that I am not a special case. God is intimately involved in your life as well. There are countless altars of remembrance in your own life. Let us revisit those altars, moments when God broke in in a tangible way. 

These are merely the moments we were made aware, conscious of His interventions, His expressions of love. When we see Him face to face, we will know the true story of our lives completely. But for now, let us feast upon the light, remember His fingerprints of love upon our lives rather than focus on the darkness that is so alluring and more “normal” to talk about or think upon. 

Lift our eyes up to You Lord, let the light of your countenance once again, invade and warm us up.