Loved by God Through and Through (even when you don’t feel it)

It is not only the perfect, the epic, the lime-lit stage that God accepts. If it was so, it would disqualify everyone from offering anything to God. But the gifts He accepts…..a little prayer, a whispered cry, a lone tear that burns before God like fragrant incense in the night, it matters………….matters profoundly to God.

Paul writes, “Obviously, I’m not trying to win the approval of people, but of God. If pleasing people were my goal, I would not be Christ’s servant” (Galatians 1:10 NLT).

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It’s easy for our lives to be defined by man-made qualifiers. For us to look to the eyes of man to define life, value, success and worth to us, for us to give to man the lines to set boundaries for our lives. But the times, the moments we take to lift up our gaze to our Abba, God of all….He alone the Rock, the Truth…unchanging, unturning…the eternal One who deceives us not, who does not play with our hearts….true peace comes for peace is a Man.

So as I prayed my little prayer of “help me God” this morning, I hear You whisper back at me “this matters” and I feel those words holding the places in me that needed a warm embrace. Two words joined with Your presence remind me You don’t need me to build Your kingdom. No, You don’t. You have everything You need, but You desire ME. Not perfection, not a majestic kingdom I can never contrive and offer. You want….me.
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Every Woman’s Struggle: the carrying on of shame

It’s easy. Easy to let the world and it’s tainted dark lies to strangle light out of our days and rob us of laughter. Easy to let the enemy run our lives, run out of our place and home in the Father’s house.

I’ve found that I’m not so alone. Not alone at all in my struggle with comparison and the shame that results; this measuring stick I like to pull out morning, noon and night to grade how well I’ve done today. There are many other women who carry this same measuring stick.

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The grading system is based on how I measure up with the perfect me I want to be, to the perfect woman that I see out there daily. And with this grading system, I blame myself when I am more emotional than I think I ought to be, snap at my husband, unable to untangle the knots of hurt and pain in my heart, not sit through a quiet time without surfing the net, not cleaned my house on the day I said I would…..but then so do so many others out there.

Yet just like how my husband (such a wonderful gift from God) reads through my hard words and stone-walled-don’t talk to me shell, coax me back to truth with a warm embrace and a “I love you,” the Lord walks me back to who I am in Him.
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stylin’ for a rainy day

Just some items I’ve been really liking lately and I thought would be fitting for today’s rainy day. I love black because it’s so classy, timeless and chic. It’s also easy to match which means you can use it to mix and match with other items already in your closet. When you buy something that’s affordable in black, it also appears more expensive than other colors. You don’t need to break the bank to go out in style. 🙂

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my “to read” list & recommended books for 2014

My friend Marianne got me thinking about books I want to read this year when she asked for book recommendations recently on Facebook. As my brain started to churn and rifle through the list of books I’ve been meaning to read but haven’t gotten around to yet, I started my imaginary list. Even though I’m doubtful that I’ll get through all of them, (telling myself it’s ok if I don’t in order to coax myself to starting them) I decided to publicize my list. And voila! Here it is….

Becoming Myself by: Staci Eldridge (currently reading)
I loved Captivating so when I saw one of my friends posted the photo of the cover of Stasi Eldridge’s new book on Instagram, I was immediately intrigued. I just purchased it via amazon kindle this morning (for 99 cents mind you!) and am excited to get started on it especially because this is something the Lord’s been highlighting to me this season, to embrace the me He created and adores.

True Love Dates by: Debra K. Fileta
This is another book that I discovered while scrolling through social media (thanks Cath!). Since this book has been generating good reviews and interest on the net, I thought I’d add it onto my “to read” list. Though I have yet to read it, I feel that it goes along with great advice I got from an older sister in Lord (who was already a wife and mother) when I was still single. During one of my many episodes of hopelessness and aimlessness in my single hood, Heather suggested that I prepare for marriage and not just wait around for Prince Charming to show up. One of the many ways I believe the Lord prepares us for marriage is to know and love who we are through our relationship with Him. This book’s focus and the fact that the author is a Christian counselor makes it a good book to check out.

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When All I Want is That Dress……and bag

I often find myself browsing online windows, peering in at beautiful patterns, running my hands through fabrics and well tailored skirts I can’t afford. Whether it’s pinteresting or shopboping….it’s hard to stop looking and looking and looking.

Though I don’t commit to the purchase, the longing, the lists are still there in my head….theres always one of things I would like to get.

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Yet, Your words of life, Your hand in mine…draws me back to look upon……
“Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal, but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also. “The eye is the lamp of the body. So, if your eye is healthy, your whole body will be full of light, but if your eye is bad, your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light in you is darkness, how great is the darkness!” Matthew 6:19-23
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